Lyrics

In the cold November gloom
Lurks an enemy inside of me
Causing pain in my heart and my soul
And I just want it out of me
And as I lay here in my room
There is this air of uncertainty
I can no longer ignore the pain
And the changes inside of me

I know I’ll be better in the Spring
The news that my life could be over starts to sting
Like a warrior, the battle is on, I will win
Coz I know I’ll be better in the Spring

Come December, I broke the news
To my friends and my family
Echoes of fear in their hearts in despair
Tears shed over me
Their sadness and fears and their love
Through the years mustn’t phase me
As the walls that I raise must not scar and not graze
They defend me

I know I’ll be better in the Spring
The news that my life could be over starts to sting
Like the warrior I am, the fight rages on, I will win
Coz I know that I will be better in the Spring

As I ready myself for the things still to come
To strengthen my mind and my soul, for this quest’s just begun
The calm before the storm, as the righteous would say
Contemplation and fear of the storm that is coming my way
As I sit here alone in frustration, life goes on without me
I know that I won’t let go, I have love that surrounds me
Listening to life on the outside while I’m trapped within
Envious of their liberty, but I know I’ll win

The chemo infusion, like soldiers, to fight on my side
A poison to fight an invader that’s inside of me
Losing my hair, not my mind, won’t deter me
The duel that I have with this beast will be behind me

Coz I told myself I’d be better in the Spring
The news that my life could be over is wearing thin
This warrior could not be broken in other things
So I know that I will be better in the Spring

Radio Therapy’s fiery lance only strengthens me
A fight to who’s death? Don’t pause, take a breath, I will win
You’re a gun without rounds, I’ll smash you to the ground, you are done
I fight with my passion, you useless assassin – I have won!

Coz I told myself I’d be better in the Spring
The news that my life could be over is wearing thin
This warrior couldn’t be broken in other things
Coz I knew that I would be better in the Spring

In the Spring

“To battle against an unseen enemy can be the hardest battle of all.
Too many have been forced to witness this battle and too many have been forced to take part.
Perhaps you are fighting right now. You are all true warriors.
Currently in remission from stage three cancer, I know that my own assailant could return to challenge me in the future. I’ll be ready for that fight.
If cancer has entered your life, let love be your shield and may you be armed with strength, courage and determination.

This is Jayne, from 99 Bears, and this is my story.

I hope you find your Springtime.”